And so it is. Just like that. My word.
I sat early morning; everyone sleeping in my overflowing household of kids and friends and dogs and joy and gladness. I was in prayer. I have been on my knees, Bible open for days, waiting on my word. I cracked open my latest Bible study and starting working, all the while listening, waiting. And there it was bold and final. Pressed on my heart. Resolute, as to not be missed. Undaunted. In my quietness, God whispered. I closed my eyes and gave out a sweet, “thank you” and then giggles, followed by a prayer of, “are you sure?” As if He doesn’t know exactly what he’s doing.
This certainly could NOT be the word that was meant for me. I am a lot of things, but patient is probably not something that would get the vote when describing me. I can have patience, but it is not in my nature. I am quick-witted, fiery and passionate. I love fiercely and without boundary. I am a hard worker, driven, determined. I am intelligent and a complete goofball…but NEVER have I been much for patience. It’s always full steam ahead…. I’m not too great at sitting on my hands.
Patience! I wrote it down.
This past year I would say my patience has been put to the test. The things I love to do were sidelined due to injuries, illness and lack of preparation. Needless to say THIS did not make me happy. But I know God has a bigger picture in store. A much better plan than the smallness of this past year, that’s being held in my mind. All that aside, there is something He’s working on.
It’s just like Him to get my attention. To plant this seed in my heart to watch grow. Just like him to derail MY plans for HIS. This is where he does his best work. Creates his masterpieces in us.
I looked up a few verses regarding patience and this is what I found: (trust me there are TONS)
~Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience. Col 3:12
~But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness faithfulness. Gal 5:22
~The end of a matter is better than its beginning; likewise, patience is better than pride. Ecc 7:8
~with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing tolerance for one another in love Eph 4:2
~Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him Ps 37:7
~We also pray that you will be strengthened with all his glorious power so you will have all the endurance and patience you need. May you be filled with joy. Col 1:11
The verses go on. I sat for 2 hours reading, writing and meditating on His Words!
We live in a world of instant gratification. Patience for anything is hard. I sat and thought about the times I have showed patience, or was forced to have patience. Waiting for my first love, waiting to marry my hubs (we dated a long time) waiting for our children to be born, waiting on a move to Coeur d’Alene, waiting on a vacation, waiting on a visit from our sweet, kids, waiting on a girlfriend date…all of those things reap the sweetest rewards. Plenty of times I have been hasty, quick to respond, making sudden, abrupt, changes or decisions without a lot of thought. Without a lot of consideration and without seeking Him in my decisions. That has often created a lot of conflict in more ways than one. It’s caused hardship, guilt, blame, tension, friction and often remorse. It’s no wonder there are the quotes “patience is a virtue” and “buyers remorse.”
I know that God has a sense of humor. I know this because he has given me this word. In all honesty, this is where he intends to grow me. In my deepest places and the innermost workings of my being, I know this. It fills me with so much hope and excitement to see how this will unfold. How this will change my life. How this will glorify him. What boundaries will be broken within me? What new and glorious treasures will unfold from this? I already know for certain, anything I think or could even imagine will be so profoundly out done.
Have you tried this? Have you found your One Word for the year?
Interestingly enough my sweet husband’s word for the year: PREPARE